Maybe in the same way like 26 years before when a I was born, this day is full of hope, promise and cheerful joy but also full of desorientation, weakness, doubts, weep and tears full of sadness...
In the morning I was full of hope, promising ideas and inner strength for next steps in creativity and work, ideas and I was enjoyed birthday wishes from my friends and after that the dark cloud of doubts completely overwhelmed me a I was thrown into complete sense of useless wasting of energy which I try to transform in creativity, film work and ideas for future works, thoughts, arts, plans and everything.
So I wept. So I felt pain. So I was full of inner disorientation. So I let tears to flow away from my eyes after so many years. So I felt my vanity in the mirror of waste space above and around me. But in the end I felt something else. The clear glimpse of strength. Strength which you can always see when you stop pretending and let your emotions come true.
And this strength is bright and large when you realize that it is your strength. Maybe the only thing which we truly posses. And no one can take it from us until we know that we have it and we are what we do. It doesnt matter if it is activity in small or large scale. Till it is from our heart this activity is pure source of our inner strength that drives us to even impossible goals and transform all our impossible thougths, aims and wishes into land of complete possible reality of our daily life.
Keep that strength in you, be true to yourself and everything else is just matter of time and will.
No depression lasts forever.
I expressed tears and transformed today´s birthday depression into these words above and it is works. It is always works... :-)
With cheerful birthday´s regards
Daniel
Post Scriptum: Just dont´t forget express yourself sometimes and at least you spare some money for your psychologist in financial crisis time with this birthday post above... ;-)
Happy birthday to all around the whole world!
If you are depressed just play some really nice and optimistic piece of music possibly here: http://www.myspace.com/soporaeternusofficial Enjoy!
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